I'm the first one to congratulate some one, any one about accomplishments or milestones in their lives. I've always offered a kind word of encouragement to an acquaintance, family member or close friend. This has been my mantra forever and I always love to see people do well, because life is too short to be so unhappy. It's funny though, cause sometimes I feel like Job or like my blessings seem to pass me by! Jealousy is a wasted emotion and I NEVER envy what anyone has, looks like or does. You have no idea what the person has had to go through to obtain or maintain their lifestyle. Nah, Thanks I'm Fine! Jealousy and Envy are one of the Seven Deadly Sins, and I THANK GOD I DON"T HAVE THAT PROBLEM. I have many, but jealousy isn't one of them.
Women especially have a problem with the "GREEN-EYED DRAGON" as Mommy called it. Sad, but true...there are times I can see broads "GREEN WITH ENVY" with other women, for the most asinine and stupid things. Is it really that deep? Jealousy is just another heavy bag to carry and add to the list of "hang ups" you already have.
Mommy taught me early in life about jealousy and how it destroys you as a person. It stops you from being free in your spirit and drives people away from you and blocks your blessings. Growing up, I watched females just carry on over men, clothes, friendships, who looked better...just plain stupid things. If I realized you were sipping on that "HATER JUICE", we couldn't rock.
There's nothing like "POSERS" people who pretend to like you and know they hate you. Then you have people who sabotage your relationships or are jealous of the person you're with and will move Hell to DESTROY what you have or the potential your relationships.
Then you have frenemies; you know the ones on the low who wish you well, yet secretly want what you have. Hate to see you prosper or have anymore than they have. Don't have a little more than the average Joe, you will be hated TRUST ME! I've seen people deliberately wreck HAVOC in folks lives over JEALOUSY.
I have been the victim of envy and jealousy with people and close friends. So much so, I have developed serious trust issues with people; and I mean SERIOUS! One thing about me, I don't have time to hate, be jealous or envy anybody. It takes too much energy out of you and my problems are many, so I don't have time to plot the demise of anyone or their happiness. In fact, I wish you well and pray God continue to bless you always. I am honest, earnest and true, even if you dislike me, believe me...I don't have time for you. My plate is full and stays full. I'm fighting for my life, my freedom and my sanity. Too busy asking God when I can finally be happy for me! Asking God to deliver me out of the situation I'm in with Lucas, help me deal with the grief of losing Mommy and just to feel a little better than I've been feeling. So no, I don't have time to feel some kind of way, I am waiting for my BLESSINGS TOO!
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