When I began this blog, I wanted it to reflect beauty and the fashion industry. However, I wound up taking an alternate path. I think I share my experiences to inspire and encourage people to hold on to the positive and release the negative demons that control their lives.
Especially when it comes to matters of the heart. Family, Love and Relationships! No matter how hard my life appears, I make it my business to encourage others to embrace life and all it has to offer and NEVER allow outside forces to RUIN their chances of having HAPPINESS!
With that being said, I just wanted to say sometimes people come into your life for a reason and a season. They are not meant to stay or are they? I had to put this clip up of Beyoncé singing I'd Rather Go Blind, because it is a personal experience of mines; and because I'd rather walk away from hurt or not see a lot of the "TRUTHS" in my life. Sometimes a person can have such a hold on you, your entire life and not have a clue or inkling they are hurting you. But what if they know, but just don't care? Or are too selfish to care? I remember thinking how long it took me to "get over" HIM and our seventeen year space. I thought for sure I was over all those feelings, but I realized later I was lying to myself and wish he never contacted me; because all those old feelings have been flooding my mind ever since. I am no longer angry with HIM, I am upset because I can't LOVE ANYONE ELSE BECAUSE OF HIM! Not because I want to be with him, but what we had (in my mind) was a bond that couldn't be broken; only I realized he didn't feel that way about me! I never really knew how he felt and I wish HE would've been as honest with me as I've always been with him. Wistful thinking as Mommy would say! Now all I can do is wish for that feeling again, but I think that's done...because LOVE LIKE THAT IS RARE!
The last time we saw each other, with out reservation he said "I KNOW YOU LOVE ME!" It was as if he finally realized what I felt was real. He gave me the warmest, safest hug and I knew then, it would be the last time I'd see him. Something inside me has died when it comes to LOVE and I doubt my feelings will ever change. I have no idea what life has in store for me, but as I watched this clip, I thought about the moment Len touches Beyoncé's face and she knew it was the end of them.
TRUE LOVE CAN REALLY HAVE A HOLD ON YOU and it's not easy to SEE what's right in front of you, BECAUSE YOU ARE TOO BLIND!
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