During the early two thousands, God DELIVERED ME INTO A LAND AND TIME OF PROSPERITY! I became an English Teacher and Dean. God Blessed me with my own car, my daughter attended private school and my children NEVER WENT WITHOUT! I had my own apartment, wanted to purchase my own house out on Long Island and was aspiring to become a Principal!
In the beginning, I was okay with being celibate, because I had my eye on someone, but he was in a relationship and I didn't see the sense of violating what he had. I wanted to RESPECT him and the mother of his children. So I stayed away and waited for him. He never knew it, but I was waiting on him. Eventually, we spoke and he informed me he was getting married and I was CRUSHED! But it was ok, or so I thought...I'd met him in ninety eight through a good friend at Bally's. That was the second LOVE of MY LIFE! They say you get three and I ADORED HIM! We became good friends and he treated me with the utmost respect and I am grateful today and we are still friends.
He was the man I wanted. I saw the dedication he had to his children and the love for his family. This man worked hard and lived in his own house. He was a party promoter and had hundreds of broads running behind him, and I felt out of place. But he always made me feel RESPECTED and called me BABY GIRL! I wanted to marry him...I was CONVINCED HE WAS IN THE CARDS. But God knew better. We had similar tastes and views, he was the man who gave the big barbecues and liked to entertain at his house and I knew this was the man I wanted to be with. He loved life and I knew we would've been ok together. But we said our goodbye's and life went on and I met Lucas.
From the start I knew Lucas was a rebound thing. I was tired of waiting and being lonely. I remember telling the Lord, "Five years is too long for me to still be waiting for a husband!" But thirteen years later, I am still unmarried and DIDN'T WAIT ON THE LORD!
Sometimes I wonder if my BOAZ exists, but I've been so disappointed in SETTLING for a man I didn't love, I may have ruined my chances for marriage.
All the red flags were there. I have NO ONE TO BLAME BUT MYSELF, If I'd only WAITED ON GOD TO SEND ME MY BOAZ!
The moral of the story is "WAIT ON GOD AND DON"T PUT ANY LIMITS, RESTRICTIONS OR TIME CONSTRAINTS ON GOD...THEY DON'T WORK and HE DOES THINGS IN HIS OWN TIME!
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