The one thing you need in a relationship is passion. It took me many years to realize this. I think there are three great loves in a person's life and I already have met two of mines. Now I am bored out of my mind and missing that passion from my life.
I saw an episode of LHHNY, with K. Michelle complaining of her "WHOO HAA" not working and I could definitely relate! Hers was because of one particular dude she loved, they broke up all the feeling down there went; and the only way she could become aroused with men, is if she had a drink! Mines began a long time ago and sex became a task. See the passion was never there to begin with and as time went by in our relationship, I realized how "UN-IN-LOVE" I really was.
For a long time I was just settling. Settling for many reasons I care not to discuss. But before I even met Lucas, I'd been celibate for five years! Because of all the things I'd gone through, I needed some alone time in my life...I was making too many mistakes, FAR TOO MANY and I knew it was time to settle down. Only it was time for me to settle down with Zanee' and get to know her, before I got to know anyone else.
Mommy used to tell me, "You have no patience Zanee'!" I knew she was right, but didn't know how to fix it or pray about it. So waiting on God to send me who he thought I should have would be a task in itself, so I threw the towel in and settled!
Settled for someone who began our relationship with a lie and has ended it with one. Settled for someone who wasn't on my level at all; someone I had to teach and bring up to my level. It's nice to meet someone and begin a "relationship," but if there's no passion and you're embarking on a relationship for all the wrong reasons, passion will never exist.
Thirteen years later, I AM BORED TO DEATH and like K. Michelle; the WHOO HAA AIN'T WORKING! Then it hit me like a ton of bricks, I NEED SOME PASSION IN MY LIFE!!! The question is, was all this ever worth it? I am bored out of my mind and need some excitement. It's funny how men think you're supposed to feel the same way after years of nonsense, I think not and just like you found time to do you...I will eventually do me.
No sense in wishing and talking about the past. I am looking towards the future and I KNOW SOMEONE IS COMING, I DON'T KNOW WHO OR WHEN, BUT I KNOW HE'S COMING! About three years ago, I really thought I couldn't become sexually aroused, and that it (MY WHOO HAA) really didn't want to work at all. One day that changed...I won't get into the dynamics, but let's just say the CHEMISTRY, THE HEAT AND KISS WE SHARED WAS FIYAAHHHHH!!! And guess what? MY WHOO HAA DOES WORK! Now if I could only find someone to work that MAGIC on me again. If we only shared a kiss and the scent of him "WOKE IT UP," I NEED TO MEET SOMEONE LIKE THAT AGAIN!!!
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